... one morning I woke up and turned on the news. The first shuttle disaster was showing then. Ever since then I have turned on the news (sometimes many times a night) to make sure the world was still there... I woke up o 9/11 and saw the whole thing unfold real time...
maybe it is not good, but it is a little better than living with a sense that something might be wrong. Most of the time I see nothing is wrong (that much) and I get a little sleep.

Maybe big global news makes my own little disaster seem a little more tolerable, I am not sure. Right now, I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. So you see, real time news that no one can take away from me is going to be a real blessing and I thank you so much!