it always seemed to me that he was chasing what he lost, based on the
fact that he had four marriages and the three other than to my
mom, were all to a woman who had two boys the same ages as my brother
and me when he and my mom split up and he left the city and moved back
to the woods. i mean woods too, he lived in the sticks behind the sticks
up there and didn't even have power, running water until he installed
a generator, though he had built a new house on thee lake and didn't
have a phone until he got a cell phone. weird for someone who could have
moved anywhere he wanted and not really worried about working or anything,
i guess, but all he wanted was to live away from people. he never called
or anything and only visited here once, but when ever i was up there
around him it was like his world lit up and he would drag me around to
see people he hadn't seen in months just so he could show me off and when
i took his grandson up there it was like he was a king or something with
how proud he was
i'm going to go away for a while, everyone be safe, warm, smile it helps