#150 by Skinner Styl skinner - 3/16/2003 6:39:36 AM
IP+ I was losing the track because of my poor english.
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I wish he had not said what he did to you, it was totally unexpected by myself. It was not right in the least, even though I do understand getting defensive, it doesn't make it right and that was totally wrong.... sorry it happened, your very good people....

A good friend of mine suffer on a 'mental illnes'.
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very sorry to hear/read this, it is hard on him I am sure but also just as hardon you and other loved ones left feeling useless because nothing seems to bring them out of it, costing you emoationally along the line.... The fact you care for him and enough so that you wish to help even if not possible because of things outside of your control, really does in fact...

I'm not sure what's the name for it in english, he has good and bad times, but it's strange seeing people change in that way. He always was tuff and 'hard' but than the other day he was afraid of seeing his hands, and picking things up, he walked around with his hands into his sweater. After some time it went better, and he was going onto the street again cycling. He almost got an accident with a car, and it scared the crap out of him. All the hard work of making him feel better was wasted.
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not wasted, it is a process, one that takes time and can involve many back slides, in time he will make it back out, and with your friendship he will have the added stability of knowing inside he isn't alone even when that is so overwhelming a feeling he can not see anything else.



like some say, god has a sick sence of humor.
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without a doubt, without one doubt...

Styl, please do not take things to heart, what was said pretty much make me decide to not speak of this in the message board at all. because it can actually be worse than speaking religion or politics...

na, don't think there are, just was a little worried that you didn't follow and might have been offended by his comment. It relly wasn't that he was mad at you either, just, at that time head and heart were to close to the demons inside kind of thing...

your friends, his hands, I'm one of those people who can look at anything and draw it exactly. Or I will be again in the future, I had put away averything art for a long period of time for different reasons... ANyways, hands, I have always had a issue with hands and can never seem to get them even 80% let alone 100% correct. I have a good idea why this is, but,thats not for the msg board.. anyway, you mentioned it all being for nothing, it isn't... it is just another step forward which is always a great thing

all the time, it was either drugged, drunk, drawing, buried between headphones or all of the above for many years. It was release and it always took me away to some place bbetter at the same time

I am trying to learn again, well, actually I never *lost* the ability, but the connection, emotionally, so it just kind of got put to the side in a box until now

this is the only thing I have online at this point in time and it is nothing really. just some 10 minutes or so, I use two different lead B and H4 do a fast sketch and then go back and darken it to liking making changes to perspective and such as I go to fit my taste....

I drew this after kicking around deviantart and then here for a bit, everyone on e of you have played a huge part in my life as far as my desire to draw again, even without realizing you were a part of it. The times I say that it is because of everyone here that I want (need?) to be a part of this I mean it completely, no drama, no smoke screen, no bullshit...

something happen a bunch of years ago and I pushed something that was so deeply a part of my life so far away from me I forgot about it and always knew something was missing but could not figure out what. You people here, and at deviantart showed it to me again...

anway...

enough about that...
I need to learn to not put chips on my shoulder while also learn to not speak to personal, because I do exactly that, and if you haven't noticed, my mind(s) run off at the keys

you should speak on the phone with me/us


http://syakebyte.deviantart.com/

WOW, that's really nice IP+, its detailed, but also simple! You should try to upload some stuff here...

I've some dragon, wizards, some political, war pic depicting the wounded and such, cartoons, fassion, kitchens, bedrooms, entry ways, cars, animals, flowers,mmm... I get things together and feel all right doing it I'll scan some.. I am mostly thinking of new work really, the old stuff I have is starting from about 8 years old until around20, with some stuff I would do for my son because he loved me to draw cartoons and such fo rhim...

this one is also nice, this guy was way ahead of his time! :http://www.mcescher.com/Gallery/back-bmp/LW389.jpg

yes I have some things like that. actually truth be told I did a drawing back in 1988, the peace dove falling from the sky dead, polutited rivers with toxic waste leaking from 55 gallon steal drums, inner city children shoot each other, a huge needle filled with heiron slaming into the world trade center blowing it up with the top halves tipping and falling to the ground, police beating someone in hand cuffs laying on the ground, a child cowering in a dark corner as a smiling man reachs for them...

mmm, windc is probably not a good site to up load that to..

Slappy !!

you know if I could get past whatever it is that causes me to not trust him or his team, I could accept he is doing what he thinkgs is best for the nation. But for the life of me, I can not, I think it is because I read up on his family history and his actions throughout his life and find him, well, not deserving of my trust. I know that just bearks his heart too

like this:
http://www.liberalopinion.com/texas%20hat.jpg

Gues IP+ went to sleep...
Sweet dreams

na working on a laptop

wife installed AOL 8.0 for dial up access when she is out of town. and it screwed up every single network connection, took each and everyone over and I've been going through and resetting all her portal settings, citrix, IR, Wireless, 10/100 intel and modem. AOL SUCKS!