I've lost count of the number started, thrown away, hidden, lost...
But every now and then I'll start another, mostly I end up writing poems in the after a bit, three pages into it

, and or doodling in them...
wouldn't write anything for publishing, more than enough out there, most of it does more damage than good, always get twisted around and some attempt to use them as tools to refute things. Thing is, I know for a fact that it is very real, but at times, it can be very fake, and there are such things as false memories imprinted by less than honest kooks claiming to be professionals and or moral/family counselors and conversely others of the same type spending all their energy attempting to refute and denounce it all together. No balance, black or white...
anyway...
everyone has a story, none better or worse than the other when it all comes out, my life is and has been as normal as anyones really. Normal is as normal does, and my life is my normal
because of it, absolutes do not exist beyond science, and even that can be extremely subjective and never unequivocally proven, maybe in one or more instances it is, but will it always be?
anyway... mmm, dang.. did it again
this is a prime example of the reasoning behind the use of my nick