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Thank you for your kind comments, Ashu (((HUG)))
Here's a few of my older "pwems" (my 'baby' word for poems
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Titled, "Fallen one"
Once you were ready to fight the good fight
Baby you were on the side of the right,
Then like a shadow that disappears in the night
You shed your wings made of gossamer light.
I witnessed your soul, thrashed against the wall
It’s something I suppose, that can happen to us all,
Where did you run? Why did you cry?
Was it because you could no longer fly?
I wish I could bring the clouds back to your feet
Where the heavens are lit and the sky’s your retreat,
What an aching reminder …that low drumming beat
Of human limbs walking a solid paved street.
Your past cloaks your eyes in a dark, haunted daze
Memories still flash underneath your tired gaze,
I can tell when you’re going back, back to the days
When your life had meaning beyond just a dark phase.
The thunder wakes you from your mental reprieve
You must open your mind to what you believe,
Nothing you do can undo what you’ve done
Just pray for the light and lookup to the sun …as you run.
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Titled, "The Garden"
How lovely does her garden grow now?
When once it was so dead?
Who could have been up to the courageous task?
To give her stems what they needed to be fed?
Then, one day came this brave gardener
A stranger walking casually a long,
He whistled a winsome, lonely tune
And then he sang this haunting song…
“Garden, I am but a stranger
and of words I do solemnly toil,
But if you allow my lexis to reach you
My love will drench to your soil.”
The garden resisted the gardener at first
Though she languished in hunger and was parched with new thirst,
For the impulse was great for her not to believe
In the things he had offered for her to receive.
She stayed starved and deprived for as long as she could
Till she finally could see he was wise and was good,
Then her gates finally opened and let him inside
Where they could quench each other with nothing to hide.
Her flowers and foliage bloomed bright and anew
With every kind word from his beautiful lips,
And with every sweet prose she could easily suppose
That he made her shine from her roots to her tips.
No longer could she hide no matter how much pride
That he was the reason she bloomed,
As each day she blossomed just a little bit more
Waiting eagerly for his gardening to resume.
So, now her garden is learning to flourish again
In a way she could never have known,
If it weren’t for the gardener whose deft mind she connects
And a part of her heart and her soil he doth own.
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Titled, "Desire"
I want to open your window
And fan your smoldering fire
Igniting sparks lit in your eyes
As I claim you in blazing desire.
I want to sing like an angelic apparition at dawn
I want to passionately dance like a sprite in the night
I want to vanish in the black wings of darkness
I want to materialize in the luminosity of light.
I want to grasp and reach and touch so deeply
I want to look and speak and think and know
I want to stop, to slow, and idly ponder
I want to wander, to run so fast and to go.
I want to lift the veil and see what’s beneath
Then cover my eyes and surrender to my senses
I want to squirm and writhe sensuously slow
I want to move faster and remove all the fences.
I want to hear your throbbing, pounding heart
I want you to hold me firmly against your hips
I want to delight in your gentle, reaching hand
As your fingers trail from my toes to my lips.
I want to launch the rockets
I want to charge at the gate
I want to rise early in the morning
I want to stay up too late.
I want to haunt the halls that echo
I want to scream into the wind
I want to break free of my bondage
I want to retrieve what I can’t rescind.
I want to beckon to the spirits that sigh
I want to be good and kind and right
I want to pray unto the gods that deny
I want to yell and cry and to fight.
I want to be free to find who I am
I want to be safe in my cold little cell,
I want the virtue and purity of heaven
I want the danger and temptation of hell.
I want to speak in wordless riddles
I want to seek, to learn, to find,
I want to know, to grow, to see
I want to be innocent and blind.
I want to rise from the cooling ashes
I want to feel the embers of burning coal
I want to be showered in your thoughts
I want to devour you, heart, mind and soul.
I want to infiltrate beyond mere words
I want to penetrate with a supernatural infusion
I want to get so beyond the surface
I want past illusory confusion.
I want to sense your piercing gaze
I want to creep into your mind
I want to whisper hushed and breathy
I want to let loose and unwind…
I want you to open my window
I want you to fan my smoldering fire,
Igniting sparks lit in my eyes
As you claim me in blazing desire.
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Titled, Fear
It keeps me awake when I should try to sleep
It takes away my laughter and causes me to weep
It increases the rhythm of my fragile heart’s beat
And I’m afraid to stand alone on my own two feet…
It’s fear
It keeps my legs hobbled so that I can’t try to run
It takes all or any pleasure out of having any fun
It robs me of my faith and any hopes for my tomorrow
It rapes me of my integrity and fills me with such sorrow.
It’s fear
It disdainfully announces that I’m no good inside
Then, it says I have no reason to feel any kind of pride
And then it mocks the very bitter tears I’ve cried, saying
The world would be better off if only I had died…
It’s fear
It keeps my nerves jangling on the razor's jagged edge
And I'm terrified to jump from the safety of my ledge
It's these moments that stretch my life in long, tortuous hours
as my veins grow cold I fear I've begun to lose my powers...
It’s fear
It lies in wait for me, setting insidious little traps
It grimaces in the mirror, reminding me of my mishaps
It tells me that I have no right to dream dreams any longer
It tries to weaken me when all I want is to be stronger…
It’s fear
It greedily feeds upon itself and it's never satiated
It kicks me in the ass and keeps me mentally berated
It plots to turn my mind into it's evil little toy
It's clever, and it's sinister and wants to steal my joy...
It's fear
It strips me of my dignity so I’m naked, cold and torn
It claws into my soul and rips the masks off that I've worn
It wounds me as it digs until my heart can take no more
Left only in my darkness I'm alone and scared and sore...
It's fear
It tells me that I'll disappoint the people that I love
And no matter how I struggle I will never rise above
It growls and howls and tortures me and spits upon my face
It leaves me feeling helpless in my anguish and disgrace...
It's fear
It tells me I'm not worth anything; that I'm not even real
It tells me that I have no right to think, to want or feel
It tells me that I'm ugly, that I'm useless, that I'm gross
It yells at me until I'm zombie like and I'm morose...
It's fear
It whispers of my doom and it warns me of disaster
It wants to overcome me; yes it wants to be my master
It tells me to trust no one; that true love is not for me
It mockingly reminds me that it will never set me free...
It's fear.
It tells me I am wrong and that I’ll never learn to fight
It questions all my motives even when I know I’m right
It wants me to give up, to quit, and finally to give in
But no matter what it wants…I must never let it win...
Even if it kills me...
It's only fear
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Titled, Tear it down
Leave it; let it go, tear it down
Let it tumble and crumble, smite the frown
Release the memories and say goodbye
Let the tears come flooding and cry.
Bring respite to your ceaseless fear
Tear it down so it can’t come near
Don’t let your foibles make you fall
Tear it down and make them small.
If your feelings make you wary
And to share them is damned scary
Know they don’t make you a clown
And if you think that, tear it down.
Give your reaching heart a rest
No need to worry or be obsessed
The hopes you have won’t make you drown
And if they do just tear it down.
Do your best to seek things higher
Stop berating your innermost desire
Wear your heart’s dream as your crown
Whatever wounds you, just tear it down.
I think that's enough...
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