pacov = God's gift to team builder... or so I must think.
I'm trying to get out of such silly mentality, but as I notice myself getting more and more bent out of shape while other folks are generally just having fun.... well, pretty sure there's a problem with my thought process. So, I dug through it a bit in my head. I'm angry when folks under perform. I quickly learn my adc is bad... bite my tongue annoyed at time wasted. I land some setup that would have been a guaranteed kill with most folks, annoyed.
Team builder doesn't help the mentality. It enforces that adc/support are the highest in demand roles currently (which means folks don't want to play those roles). When I queue up and instantly get into a game while everyone else has been waiting about - I know that I actually have my pick of where to play generally. I don't like the composition, whatever, I bounce only to queue up to another group within seconds. In short, plenty of power in my hands there - it also means that if today is the day I've decided I'm lemonnation and I'm support olaf... guess what... those fellas that have been waiting for 10 minutes for a support... I'm probably going to have everyone lock in without batting an eye.
Seems like the position I'm in when solo team builder support is a bit out of proportion just due to demand. I'm clearly bouncing around a bit and sounding pompous here and there. Sorry for that.
Anyway, my goal is to tone it down in my mind and get less pissed off if we lose. I get mad at mistakes.... more angry if its straight up dumb/throw the lane mistakes as opposed to just missing a kill op that required a slightly higher skill level to pull off. I get straight up enraged when I'm blamed for other folks bad decisions. I solve that pretty easy by doing a mute all if I'm feeling "sensitive." I feel bad when I screw up (happens).
I tend to be able to have a more relaxed, easy going time when I try out champs I don't normally play as a support or don't have a ton of reps with. For instance, I don't play a ton of annie support, so I tend to gravitate less towards anger when I don't feel my skill level is quite as high. Meanwhile, if I play someone like morg/lux/blitz and my team underperforms even though I'm giving them a ton to work with, angrycov appears.
I haven't really figured out the formula (ever... really) to being highly competitive without getting angry/bent out of shape if things go poorly. I guess some of that ties to my perception of myself as a support. I can't remember the last time I felt outclassed by a support. There have been MANY times where I can be a mid or top and easily say this guy is better than me - HELP! That just does't really happen with supports in my experience. I think I'd be just as competitive and easily bent out of shape if I felt like I was good at mid/top, though - with 1 caveat - if I die mid or top, unless its happy whine and blame the jungler time, its because I made a mistake - that results in frustration as opposed to being angry at my team - but it makes me want to become a better player.
That said, the same problem kind of exists for me in all roles - that being, if I think I'm good, I get more angry/bent out of shape if I perceive folks on my team as under performing. I can offset that by reducing how "good" I think I am by taking a support I don't normally use. Then I can be pretty easy going. If I pick one of my star supports, mad pacov if you fail.