I'm not gonna even address 90% of the idiotic stuff you said. I'll address the idea that everyone around here, or in the community 'hates' me.
You have to understand, when I call Jark an ass, or tell Jafo he's a nut; I've known these people for over 3 years. I was griping at Frogboy on the Skinz messageboard before 90% of the 'community' existed. Do I expect everyone in this little break room to be my friend or even like me? Nope.
The modern world is losing the concept of 'acquaintence', I think. Someone need not be an enemy, even if they aren't your friend. In nobler times you could argue with someone, utterly dispise them, and yet sit down and have a decent meal and enjoy whatever jabs were exchanged. People now, though, walk around like the world is an episode of Barney. Will I change my own behavior to suit it? Nope.
I think that anyone who can actually hate someone over what they read on a messageboard is, frankly, sick. If you ask for a list of people who dislike me, it will probably be long. Ask the same people if I would help them if they needed help; ask them if they haven't *seen* me be helpful to people they know I dislike.
If it sounds like I am tooting my own horn, I am. I believe in honesty and charity. If I think you are an ass, I won't keep the truth from you; I'll even volunteer it. If you need help, I shouldn't withold it, regardless of my feelings. If I slice you in an arguement, somewhere down the line I'll probably offer you a way to save face, or at least offer you a band-aid.
I suggest reading The Meditations of Marcus Aurelius. If not the whole thing, the first chapter. If you can't find that, read Polonius' advice to his son, Laertes, in the play Hamlet (Act 1 scene 3). Practical, non-religious wisdom that will keep you all your life.
If you are saying you're sorry, I'll take your word for it. If you're offering an apology, I don't accept it. Doesn't really change anything, does it? I still won't like you. If you need anything, let me know.
Again, best of luck to you.