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I am ME!

goodmorphing sharpens the radar then thinks better of using that method, thinking that using radar on something fuzzy within and without requires something more gentle and stealthy....

fuzzy...Oops, a little bit of my dark side was coming out there goodmorphing wonders if that would be dark logic?

feline is nervous since you might not be goodmorphing still has the impression that dracoform is important (and probably exciting) to get to know. (and must admit that she is still feels altoghether nervous about this wonderous venture here)

feline...been there, done that, got the t-shirt We get tees for that?

werewolf...This stuff may have been way more info than anyone wanted to read, but it sometimes makes me sad that *so much* is put on the way we look on the outside. goodmorphing thinks it wasn't more than I wanted to read.

That underlined part is where I stumbled coming onto the internet.

werewolf.. Life is way too short.

There is this trick of squeezing a lot in, of making sure you say what you want to say, of loving who you want to love. Love, for people and things and music and chocolate, is kind of a generator.

werewolf... I guess I've been wearing my cloak for so long, it's turned to concrete. goodmorphing thinks that this is a place where radar might work.

I think by typing words here you begin to rattle some of the concrete off.

feline votes for more sharing by werewolf!!! goodmorphing vote yea!

*dracoform* notices that you can see the blush all along felines back and tail to! goodmorphing notices dracoform noticing and thinks that means that he is outside of the big warm group hug and wonders about correcting that but feels a little timid now....

When a werewolf blushes, you can only see it on the tip of its nose

Ah.... that explains that glowing spot on the other side of the hug!

Who are you?

feline is the whirlwind

also, feline is ME

feline... you know those warm friendly blobs you referenced in the other thread? Reading that I wanted to cry... I have held myself "guilty" my life long because that is how I see things. I read the books and know the story, I go to the movies and get lost in them, I listen to the music and get lost in it. And then everyone wants to examine the author, or the actor, or the musician and I am lost! And it is that way in more familiar situations too... No one ever talked about that before...

GM - I have erased more here than I have allowed to pass....

feline - been there, done that, got the t-shirt

GM - We get tees for that?

i dont see why we shouldnt

if we got an erasing tee... would it be safe to wear?

GoodMorphing - feline... you know those warm friendly blobs you referenced in the other thread? Reading that I wanted to cry... I have held myself "guilty" my life long because that is how I see things.

*snip*

GM - No one ever talked about that before...

the referenced quote:

feline - people get upset when i don’t know who they are, but humans are just blobs to me until i have got to know them, at which point they become people. i don’t know if this is how others think, but it is how my mind works. as a suitable example i couldn’t describe my work colleges beyond gender and a vague indication of height and build. i have been working with these people for 3 years, recognise them on sight, but still they are just familiar blobs.

feline hugs GM and holds her tight
its ok, you arent the only one like this, you have found someone else who understands you now, and so have i.

i dont tend to feel guilty over this, well not that much, since it is just how i am. the thing is other people dont understand it. being like this has caused me problems over the years though

people either conclude that i am stupid, or that i am being deliberately rude. feline *sad sigh*

my one main saving grace now is that where i work is a small company, so there arent that many faces to remember. so having been there for a few years now i get by quite well

the main advantage though is that i work as a programmer, so people tend to be more "forgiving" of my "eccentricities". after all, programmers tend to be a bit odd to begin with, so my (supposed) maddness isnt quite so hard to deal with.

feline: people either conclude that i am stupid, or that i am being deliberately rude. feline *sad sigh*

They tried to say I was autistic. They kept giving me tests. Finally the top guy (the one who trains the other ones) came and said he wished his ink blot test came out as good as mine. He said he wouldn't mind trading that and the IQ one too. Then I pointed out that there is a big variance between that and the way I manage to communicate with the world, and the success that my life isn't. He agreed. Now I have some medicine for attention deficit. When I first got it, it was like being awake for the first time in my life. I went back to school and graduated from the University. I went to work in Pediatric Intensive Care Unit, then later in one for adults then later in ER. I was working my way through school with 40 hours work nights in ER, 20 hours work in the graduate library, and finishing off my last semester. I was getting sick and the doctors pointed out that you need to sleep more than one or two hours a night. Then things started falling apart. I just wanted to have everything at once, once I could "think straight". Even so, it is a different way of thinking and I think there will always be a lonely difference.

feline hugs GM and holds her tight
its ok, you arent the only one like this, you have found someone else who understands you now, and so have i. goodmorphing thinks I could relax with this now.

feline....i dont tend to feel guilty over this, well not that much, since it is just how i am. the thing is other people dont understand it. being like this has caused me problems over the years though

It is the anger that gets expressed my way, the hurt feelings that get caused and try as I might to be a better person and not make the anger happen, and not cause the hurt feelings... It happens. It is also a very lonely feeling.

feline...my one main saving grace now is that where i work is a small company.....the main advantage though is that i work as a programmer... goodmorphing thinks I wish I knew computers sooner.

Here is some interesting writing... http://www.grandin.com/inc/visual.thinking.html

Now I have to hurry off...

and now for something completely different...

I any of you guys use rainlendar, i uploaded a glass theme, called 'glass' in the graphics section. It's not much, but it goes with anything. I have to go get myself back in one piece.

GM: I read that article. If this is the same person, I heard an interview with her on National Public Radio re her efforts to help the cattle industry. It was an amazing interview.

werewolf - well, now i'm crying...I suppose I can't be egocentric enough to think that i'm the only lonely person out there, but i don't know any. and i feel totally selfish for feeling that way. i'm not supposed to feel that way, but i do. there is such a big hole, a big hole, a big hole, a big hole...

feline grapples with the urge to just kidnap GM, werewolf, fuzzy, and to run away to a better place

werewolf... That looks good. I downloaded it and put it in the folder, but it won't show up until I reboot. Thanks! I don't look in the graphics section much, I will do more of that now.

goodmorphing sneaks back in and agonizes about all the emotive words she placed here lately thinking that sometimes her words sound a lot braver than she really is, and sometimes more angry.

Deleting buttons come in handy, sometimes. And maybe not having one is good. Impulsive moments caught in posterity and framed for all the world to see and take an impression of... GASP!

goodmorphing has inner battles of her own.

GM: First exit Rainlendar...Put the glass stuff in its own folder under Rainlendar. Go to that folder, open the glass.ini file and change the path for the background image. For example, mine looks like this: BackgroundBitmapName=D:\Program Files\Rainlendar\glass\main.bmp

Yours might have to be c:\my app files\rainlendar\glass\main.bmp

After you save that .ini file back to the glass folder, you might want to go up to the rainlendar folder and open the rainlendar.ini file and tell it that your "CurrentSkin" name is glass and that the "CurrentSkinIni" file is glass.ini. Then start rainlendar. It should be ok then. Also, something I didn't think about... My screen rez is 1024x768 and I have rainlendar showing at the bottom left corner. If your rez is smaller than that, like 800x600 then rainlendar could be loading correctly, just off the screen. If that is the case, close rainlendar (just "end task" in the task manager) go to the rainlendar folder, open the rainlendar.ini file and change the x and y coordinates. Mine are set to x=0 and y=604.

I hope I haven't been "talking down" to you I just want this to work for you. If you have any other problems, please ask.