| Old Crab - What's this !?! FL, GM, KG, et.al. How could you of all people let the Chocolate World fall to the second page? |
this deserves an answer, i am just not sure that i want to give the answer in public.
one upon a time, some years ago now, i discovered Stardock and Object Desktop.
while it wasn't always smooth sailing, most of it was good. now and then there were big issues with the software, but they didn't last long, and were dealt with in a good way. i felt happy about the overall experience, i was getting a good computer experience out of it, and wincustomize basked in the reflected glory.
i have been toying with writing a summary of my experience of OD for the last year, however i cannot quite bring myself to do so. why? simply because it would be so staggeringly negative and depressing *sigh*
now, wincustomize no longer basks in the reflected glory of my OD experience. instead when i visit i see sections of skins for programs that i dare not or do not use and reports of updates to programs that don't fix the bugs i am dealing with on a daily basis.
quite simply, due to "resonance" with this depressing OD experience, the mere sight of the wincustomize front page is enough to depress me
as a result by the time i get past the front page to the message board all i want to do is to close the window, and look at something else instead. this has not come about overnight, it really has been building for a year or more. please don't tell me to email stardock support about all of this, the *large* number of emails i have sent speaks for themselves.
for a long time i threw myself into this site. when the message board became hostile i threw myself into this thread, as a haven, a safe place, something i had built, a good thing, my way of giving something back to the community.
i look in perhaps one a week now, since this is all i can bare to do. perhaps this thread will survive this time of trouble, i really do hope that it will. i want to return to my friends, but the shadow of depression hangs over this place. it is so hard to draw a clean line between these two worlds, to see this thread in isolation of the surrounding issues.
i have a faint hope that one day OD will resurrect its self, but it is only faint. once it was a strong certainty, but time has warn away at it, and it has slowly dwindled away.
you can see why i don't normally say any of this. however, you my friends deserve an answer. looking at my words i feel that perhaps i should say this in private, and not make public these comments. i am torn over this. respect says don't say this, but that is dishonest.
am i wrong to say this? i don't see how, this is my honest sense of what has happened, and i am entitled to my opinions and feelings, especially when the facts speak for themselves.
feeling pulled away from you, my friends, this *hurts*!
*sigh* i am going to post this. if the powers that be feel it shouldn't be here then it can be removed. hiding from this, ignoring this, that hasn't helped. maybe someone will see this and understand.
for now, i hope that one day things will improve and i will once more feel able to return on a regular basis to you, my friends.
