I always thought life sucked, but even more so than now. i got diagnosed with cancer of the breast. and quite frankly im pretty numb, i have no feelings to even find. this is what god has now decided to shove down my throat. the darker half of me just wants to let it fester internally until it kills me, so i can finally fullfill my lifelong dream and join my dad in his grave. the other half says fix it, get the opporation. i dunno what to do
quite franky, im pretty sure most of you are secretly thinking "oh goodie shes going to die...' I dont blame you, I never wanted anything but to be liked by people. its pretty hard when you dont have a mind that functions like everyone else, so your just not normal in the first place. so it really makes no difference if your liked or not, either way your just an outsider....
I dont want anything, reply if you want, or dont reply either way, i have to deal with this my own way. so if you dont see me in the forums, but you see me skin every now and then, yeah im still here, but what ever my fate is, will just be that, my fate.........................
