| You had told me to drop Lord; suggested I was a cross dresser and/or desirous of a special operation; and I think there was also an inference that my wit bites. Some might consider those things worthy of apology. |
People that believe in trying to make things better and then fly off the handle for some minor perceived slight believe that these things are worthy of apology as well. This is how I view my recent actions. So I want to explicitly and unreservedly apologize for each and every one of them.
You brought up feelings so I’m using that as an excuse to take a moment and share a few of mine. I intensely dislike these kinds of topics because, as I've said so many times, they solve nothing, change no one's opinion and can only cause hard feelings. Why these topics interest anyone is really beyond me, but they must because people flock to them at every opportunity.
But the question is, who am I that I take it on myself to try to "fix" the situation. The answer is, nobody really, it's Kryo’s job to monitor these forum's and if people exceed Stardock's defined limits on behavior, to take appropriate action. The problem with this as I see it, is that Kryo's hands are tied by Stardock's otherwise admirable free speech policy.
Because I have no relationship whatsoever with Stardock and because I see the apparent need, I feel it would be morally negligent on my part to not at least try to do something to reduce the level of animosity below what would otherwise result from Kryo’s action of occasionally and temporarily reducing the most blatant offenders to visitor status. This is the main motivation for pretty much every post that I’ve made in these types of threads. I really have no interest whatsoever in the topic itself. I am deeply saddened when, as in this case, I become a part of the problem instead of part of the solution.
I’ve also had the hubris to assume I could possibly make a difference in the behavior of a few selected individuals by developing relationships with them and gently prodding them away from bad behavior and towards the goal of becoming valuable GalCiv2 citizens. My unconscious selection criteria have been people that remind me of my younger self, hotheads capable of flying off the handle at the most minute perceived provocation but with the capacity of laughing at oneself when forced to examine one’s own behavior. My recent behavior suggests that perhaps I’m not so removed from them as I thought.
In any case, though my recent behavior may have dampened my enthusiasm for trying to be the voice in the wilderness, my nature is such that I’ve no doubt I’ll shortly be back doing the same damn thing. As the wise old sage, Popeye, once said “I yam what I yam and that’s all that I am”.
