Im perturbed.....
Maybe its all those fucking brainfarts blowing the top of my head off, I really dont know.... maybe its I just wanna do a good job and still think I suck at it.... no amount of graditude or praise is gonna help this poor ass soul, I just dont get it... okay Im not being a sook okay, Im just bitching is all no biggie right... anyway back to my post =| My personal graphics site which I am trying to get back on its feet after a tragedy... namely my own emotional break down at the lose of a love one and the continued struggle of another... I have decided to finally work on it some more and try to get everything on there.... hell I should be doing that right now but Im not... thank you Mr. ADD! Well I have come to realize that I really need to think about what I am doing, instead I am contantly making a little foray here and there with little bits of things, I should really be working on my site... goddamn ADD!!
Why am I even writting this... I mean its not like you care about my site, hell I really dont care about it that much, too much work when it comes down to it.... =| Im lazy if you havent noticed, and I smoke too much and I drink too much cola and wine.... life expectancy is.......
too many more years...... that I feel like actually taking to the time to count. Told you I was lazy Maybe you will listen next time.
Degress engaging in 5...4...3...2...1... DEGRESS!
I think I smoke way too much... pack here pack there.... mostly in one day, I swear if I would have listened to the smoking campains at school when I was there I think that I would be at least a millionaire now, or relativily close by now.... but thats life... the sad thing is Im not even smoking the good shit... Im smoking the cheap shit... and no its not a ploy to save myself money, completely the opposite, Im broke... I have no money.... damn internet.... its the devil... I love you guys! Its like this when it comes down to it... the ciggy companies are down right fucking evil! They make these cheap cigs.... but they suck so bad you have to smoke like a pack to ge the same feeling as ONE GOOD smoke... =| So in the end you are killing yourself more successfully... if anyone wants to commit suicide.... take this to heart then... start smoking DURANT cigarette..... its better than a bullet, wont burn your neck like the rope and comes in some niffty colors.... maybe that should be my next post... something I dont know SERIOUS... I had a girl once say that I was a sweet heart and that I spoke with such wisdom of life and tough situations.... Im an asshole.... what part did she look at.... makes me wonder... was my ass showing.... anyway... I think this is enough for today hell I might write more I dont know its the ADD talking at the moment I have a lot of shit to do today.... as if that means anything...
I need a call sign errr signoff thingy..... much contemplations will come of this.... or not... my lazy ass has to get up to the need of doing it I suppose....
adios.....
