Conquest stop trying to get attention man its so stupid and silly. You trying to make out like we are all the bad people and your okay? Making a fool out of yourself is not going to win you any friends or anyone feeling sorry for you. Go find a website where there are other people like yourself, will you for everyone's sake and your own?

you realize things you don't see when you talk to someone outside the forums... I have been spending way too much time in the chat rooms acting on impulses that I cannot inherently stop that is how those chat rooms work is by selective and quick action expecting quick actions and not thinking things over...

second of all I didn't tell my parents the whole story. they don't know half of what I did say that I regret saying altogether there is a command to remove previous messages that I think I will try to master and get down. other than that the ignore commands are my friends at best. I am an introvert and am not good at group chat so when I try to speak in a group there is major troubles in doing so.

I don't see the whole picture and I don't think no one ever does see the whole picture. confusion is what I see and that is all that I can explain. sorry for pestering any of you. and to be honest I hate ops so this I found on some mIRC site may help.

As of ircu2.10.02 you can start a “modeless channel” This is a channel with the prefix “+” instead of #. (e.g +chat)
Such a channel can’t have any channel operators and its mode is always set to +nt.
From this, “no topic”, “no /invite”, “no external messages” and “no bans” logically follows.

The purpose for this invention is “to create an enviroment where all users are equal and not tempted to fight about ops”. Flooding should be dealt with by either leaving the channel or using /ignore or /silence. (2.12) Making it topic-free and non-invite is to avoid flooding by topic-changing or mass-invite, or any gibbering over what todays topic should be.

now if given a chance to change my ways I will but really I don't like chat rooms and I am not a heavy chatter so I think I will keep quiet about the whole issue at hand. not to blame anyone but me for my actions on saying things I don't know are derogitory. really though Fox I don't want your advice so don't force it upon me. and Marc just shut up stop comparing me to you. there I said it I feel better about getting this out in the open. All I joined the Hijack Crew for was to converse with people and make friends out of aquantances, I know I say things for reasons that are hainous and beyond conjecture.

and another thing Marc medications effect people in different ways. you may have had some over stimulus problems with Prozac but I don't as of yet. I also Take Strattera but I haven't been taking both lately.

To conclude the frustration was building the whole time I was there so I am not suprised to see my outburst to release my frustration in this way. This is my release sorry if you cannot take this as a good thing to help me metally return to stability. also if it isn't too much I sent faery a note to bid her farewell and don't you Fox take it as me being a "Stalker" I have no intensions of hurting her so leave it that way. and to faery herself realize that I needed to release if I let it build I sink deeper into a hole and it is harder and harder to escape if I don't act.

I am Regretfully sorry that it came to me leaving Neotech but I cannot stand restraint and banning me was something I don't like but now my dad has the best advice and that is to just put it behind us if you like to create a modeless channel to work it out further and to keep me around if you wish go ahead but that is the only solution for now and I will not comprimise...

Don't you ever DARE use ADHD as an excuse again.

I used Depression as my excuse Marc did you read that forum post at all?

For one, you know full well that Neo has teething issues,

wtf? there are many mIRC servers Marc it doesn't have to be this one. and you are stil there in Neotech are you not. The modeless channels are separate channels are they not? you can create your own channel if you want to...

Also, since I, you know, study medicine and stuff, I *do* know what I'm talking about. If your diagnosis of ADHD was correct, you should not be on prozac, as simple as that. In the UK, where we treat things WITHOUT doping people up, you would never have been given it.

Marc I take the Prozac for my Depression not ADHD. I take Strattera for ADHD...

Are you a psychaitrist Marc? do you have a degree in that area? have you been doing that for 50 years of your life? My psychaitrist knows what he is doing and you need to just stop being so smart ass and think you know something you don't have any experience in.

yea well I have ADHD and aspergers too, but you know what, I'm in complete control of it. Sure I get hyper or silly sometimes, but nothing wrong with that. and yes I've had an impulsivity problem but I've learned how to deal with that.

I do take prozac, but thats mainly to help with anxiety, which I think is elevated serotonin or dunno, but yea meds have different effects on different ppl.

Do I have a degree? no. Am I studying for one? Have I been studying for many years? Yes. I have far more experience and knowledge in the area than you, and know how my own damn brain works, and how ADHD works, and how the medicine related to it works. Funnily enough, because I enjoy knowing stuff, yeah. I know a hell of a lot about ADHD. And I know however different ADHD is, and coupled with depression, still does not mean you have the right to behave as you wish.

Just so you know, part of the decision to suspend you has been your lack of acceptance of responsibility. Trolling behaviour such as this, on the hijackers thread of all places, is shitting on our doorstep.

Fox and Raven are the only ones even considering a warning. If it came to a vote your ISP will be banned, because the rest of us are sick and tired of you.

What happened to the "no comparisons" rule? Don't compare yourself to faery. She is far more tolerant than you. She can handle it better than you. She is nothing like you.

Do I have a degree? no. Am I studying for one? Have I been studying for many years? Yes. I have far more experience and knowledge in the area than you, and know how my own damn brain works, and how ADHD works, and how the medicine related to it works. Funnily enough, because I enjoy knowing stuff, yeah. I know a hell of a lot about ADHD. And I know however different ADHD is, and coupled with depression, still does not mean you have the right to behave as you wish. Just so you know, part of the decision to suspend you has been your lack of acceptance of responsibility. Trolling behaviour such as this, on the hijackers thread of all places, is shitting on our doorstep. Fox and Raven are the only ones even considering a warning. If it came to a vote your ISP will be banned, because the rest of us are sick and tired of you.

Marc for one thing you may know and your experences are different and the way you treat me is a sign you need to control yourself if you wish to become anything in that field of study. My psychaiatrist don't come to me saying what the fuck you think you are saying? they try to resolve in peaceful ways and less irrational ways. Fox is more understanding towards this and is more civil and controlled and for my sake going to eventually put this behind him too.

I am saying this you need to look at what you are saying as much as I do...

The reason I like the forums more is that I get to think about what I say before rearanging what I say as to screw things up and make me sound like I don't know anything. I get all the time in the world to post on a forum. Wereas on a Chat Room I have to improv things a lot and just screw up my words and say shit that is all.

Realize though that I am trying my hardest to try and compensate for what I don't have, that is the ability to talk to people in a organized an fasionable manor I don't have the perfect assertation of speech and have a certain style of English that is all my own, different in many ways to Marc's, JJ's, and even Fox. we all speak differnetly and I have yet to perfect word arrangement and a style of putting words to make others understand me better.

"Fools Rush in Where Angels Fear to Tread"
--EM Forster

I would like to say as the person who initiated this thread that this conversation really does not belong here. Not to sound insensitive, but we all have our own problems and no one wants to come here and read someone elses constant rantings about how much their life sucks.

Conquest you have problems, OK I can live with that. But I can't live with it constantly being used as an excuse and a crutch. You do remember Psycho don't you?
Well you have in the past month been just as irratating and insulting as he was. We have all tried to be patient and understanding. We have tried to help you, but we can only do so much if you are not willing to help yourself.

As far as banning you from Neotech, they are more than justified. If it were up to me I would ban you from the internet as a whole until you were capable of being more rational. The internet, chatrooms, forums, and so forth are not there for just your amusement, but for the benifit of all. Abusive people on the internet cause people to loose interest, which cost companies money. You were abusive in IRC. You were abusive in Neotech. And you are being abusive on this thread.

I ask you only to be more considerate of others and less selfish. You are not the only one here nor the only one with problems. Please end your rant on this thread.

I would like to say as the person who initiated this thread that this conversation really does not belong here. Not to sound insensitive, but we all have our own problems and no one wants to come here and read someone elses constant rantings about how much their life sucks. Conquest you have problems, OK I can live with that. But I can't live with it constantly being used as an excuse and a crutch. You do remember Psycho don't you? Well you have in the past month been just as irratating and insulting as he was. We have all tried to be patient and understanding. We have tried to help you, but we can only do so much if you are not willing to help yourself. As far as banning you from Neotech, they are more than justified. If it were up to me I would ban you from the internet as a whole until you were capable of being more rational. The internet, chatrooms, forums, and so forth are not there for just your amusement, but for the benifit of all. Abusive people on the internet cause people to loose interest, which cost companies money. You were abusive in IRC. You were abusive in Neotech. And you are being abusive on this thread. I ask you only to be more considerate of others and less selfish. You are not the only one here nor the only one with problems. Please end your rant on this thread.

Onikazi you have no Idea I hate Psycho since he did such nonsense and I am nothing like Psycho. I am trying to deal with this as it comes along and if you read this AT ALL you would understand that I am not ranting and the only reason I choose here is that it is behind 33 pages of stuff that no one will read this far. you are insensitve for now I will leave it at that. I ended my rant but as far as I am concerned I have been non abusive to this site altogether I help people I ask questions and help the people on this site with there game strategies and questions I am not Psycho and I have not been half as bad as Psycho.

I am not using this as a crutch but to say that it is more than just what lies on the surface.

Then you have just proven what an idiot you are. You damn well have been as annoying, except you haven't picked a fight with Stardock, just us. What you have no idea is the stuff you spout on 7 line monologues IS nonsense, and spam. If you are finally done? The door is that way.

you have just proven why I hate you guys. {slams the door in Marc's face}